one of my traits when it comes to my autism is constantly reading into my friends or mutuals. meaning, i want to know all there is to know about their interests, including ocs, ideas, AUs, and anything creative. i love learning about the creative processes of my friends, and i especially get inspired very easily by seeing what my friends do creatively. i have a tendency to mimic certain behaviors, such as right now, i'm writing a longer journal entry as one of my mutuals on dreamwidth writes lengthy entries.
i discovered a really lovely
original character, and i've noticed that this oc has so much love and care put into them it's inspiring, genuinely. i know nothing about genshin impact (except that i have a scaramouche shrine because one of my alters is a yumejoshi with him), but from what i have read about the oc's profile, i feel like they're part of the canon. the amount of tender loving care put into the oc and their profile and even the blog reminds me of my own oc, mihkel.
sadly, i don't draw, so any art of my ocs is very limited and some of the art drawn of him were made by people that i no longer want involved in my or even mihkel's life.
( a history of mihkel rebane )this is absolutely NOT a bash or complaint against artists. i respect artists. drawing is hard, perhaps just as hard as writing. in my head, a sketch is about 5,000 words, and a fully rendered, colored full-body piece is 100,000 words. it takes lots and LOTS of effort. i am simply expressing how lonely it is to be a writer on a place meant mostly for artists and visual media. not to mention, i am visually impaired, so drawing is a little tricky. i lack any visuals of most of my ocs, and i sadly do not know the artists who did draw most of my ocs back when i "commissioned" via amino coins on the app amino (traumatic experience), so i don't see the point in updating my toyhou.se. and it seems like no one really... wants to deal with those who use picrew/doll makers in place of art. and traditional art is often overlooked.
on a more positive note! the dedication that some people have with their ocs is... breathtaking. overwhelmingly so. it makes me a little sad because of my inability to draw digitally, and i can't afford to buy commissions no matter how badly i want to support artists. i have lore upon lore of my characters, i can talk about my characters and write for hours talking about mihkel, horatiu, elmira, and all of my gijinkas as well as my identity v ocs, especially elian, my self-insert.
maybe one day i will gain the ability to draw digitally. for now, i bought a ton of drawing books and guides, and i have a few more books coming in the mail. my resolution is to learn how to draw, and to draw every day as long as my physical health allows it. i have disabilities in my wrists and joints, so sometimes drawing can be difficult. especially since i hold my pencil weirdly.
anyway, maybe i will write a master post about my main ocs. mihkel and horatiu are two of the most developed ocs i have in the
meie maakera project, while sora is my oldest and most beloved oc. i hope that even without visuals, that my ocs will be pleasant to learn about.
also, check out the site i linked in the beginning of this post!
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asuraid has a lot of beautiful art of her oc. :D
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